Early 1952; University of Toronto
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themidnightsonEdward would like to be enjoying his class on the primacy of communication in the structuring of human cultures and the ramifications thereof on the human mind. He's actually quite interested in The Toronto School of thought, and with little more reason than that, he'd been halfway to another degree since they settled here.
Ancient Greek had provided a good challenging distraction, and the idea about its impact on psychological communication systems and social states, intriguing. It rarely lost his interest, even when his peers and professor's distractions, both on him and not, could be incredibly tedious at times. But it wasn't any of those today, and he wasn't paying enough attention to be able to focus.
He wasn't even paying loose attention to the fixated pleasure of Esme's architecture class on burgeoning urbanism a few buildings away. All of his focus was settled on one point.
Jasper.
Weaving his way through people passing between classes, studying, in groups here and there. Testing his ability to be around large groups. Whether he could manage what the rest of them seemed to do without too much of a struggle. Which had Edward watching Jasper, both himself and through the eyes of those passing him, more than the professor writing notes on the board in front of him.
The slow ramp of struggle with the temptation, that was expected, and, the unexpectedly sizable mounting weight of every new flood of emotions from every new person, hundreds of them, everywhere, more with each passing hour as midday brought in the biggest crowds of the day even in winter.
Ancient Greek had provided a good challenging distraction, and the idea about its impact on psychological communication systems and social states, intriguing. It rarely lost his interest, even when his peers and professor's distractions, both on him and not, could be incredibly tedious at times. But it wasn't any of those today, and he wasn't paying enough attention to be able to focus.
He wasn't even paying loose attention to the fixated pleasure of Esme's architecture class on burgeoning urbanism a few buildings away. All of his focus was settled on one point.
Jasper.
Weaving his way through people passing between classes, studying, in groups here and there. Testing his ability to be around large groups. Whether he could manage what the rest of them seemed to do without too much of a struggle. Which had Edward watching Jasper, both himself and through the eyes of those passing him, more than the professor writing notes on the board in front of him.
The slow ramp of struggle with the temptation, that was expected, and, the unexpectedly sizable mounting weight of every new flood of emotions from every new person, hundreds of them, everywhere, more with each passing hour as midday brought in the biggest crowds of the day even in winter.
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Date: 2020-06-27 11:07 pm (UTC)Not since having met Alice, and those occurrences only increased after having moved in with the Cullens. It's good for him to be out and about, adjusting, if the goal is to blend in.
His favorite times, other than with Alice, were with Esme. To the hardware store or antique shop. She's as good at distracting him as Alice is, usually. Not to mention that she seemed to want to know his honest opinion on the projects of her architecture class.
This schooling thing is different.
Especially when it feels like the whole of God damned population of Toronto seems to be on the campus.
Jasper ducks into an abandoned-for-now room when it becomes too much - the boredom, the irritability, the heartache, the anxiety, the overwhelming feelings of helplessness.
He may have had to break the lock to get in - he'd made sure no one was watching - and the door closes behind him with a thud.
The quiet room helps, a little, even if he can still feel all of it, just beyond the wall he leans against.